I really shouldn't be feeling sad today.  The sun shone (after it rained), one of my foster pups may have a wonderful new home, my other foster pup came through her spay and is resting happily at home, work got done, laundry got done.....

But I feel overwhelmingly sad about being on my own this evening.  When I stop and am still and think about it I still can't believe that I am childless (not by choice) and now don't have a husband.  How did this happen?

So hard not to blame myself.